I love Jesus christ! But it is hard to be a true christian ( really ) how do you do it???I know it's supposed?

to be easy but for me the occult is much easier ( the occult meaning hidden knowledge or hidden things that is to say when i pay more attention to my horoscope or throw quarters to tell my own future or Relax and let the world pass me by while I stay in a state of ZEN what's wrong with this picture or what's right??? )